So I've already made my choice. I told you that I would take full responsibility of we talked about last September 14. I already had decide that it's gonna be you. Others would think that it was too fast. I wouldn't care at all what would they say and think. 

Yes, I was unfair, to her. I chose you over her. 

Sooner or later, people surrounding us would know. They may not be able to accept it easily. They might ask questions. They may start hating me. Well, this is reality. They will be able to get over with it soon enough. I just wanted to give them my apologies, even if they won't accept it or they would. I'm sorry, to her, her family, our friends. 

This time, I would try and make things right. I would make things right that would last forever, not just for a lifetime. We will create lots of good memories. I would definitely replace all the bad experiences you had. I will love you more than anyone else have loved you before. 

by asepdf | 08:46 AM | Trails to forever | 1 said something

Been out for a few weeks here in tabulas. To make my comeback, I'm posting some photos taken with Diana that I recently had developed and scanned.

Click the images for bigger sizes.

Cheers~

Shot taken while I'm eating something I bought from Mercato.

 
On my way home, waiting for a jeep. 

This one's my fave from the whole roll.

Our dog, Jack. This one's special for me.
He always welcomed us when we get home, like in this pic.

The rest of the pics are [here]

by asepdf | 09:30 AM | From Diana's visions | say anything?

blood is thicker than water, eh? it might be true. but not until you put money shit between them. 

by asepdf | 03:26 PM | say anything?

As of this moment, I'm experiencing a deep physical and mental struggle. I should be sleeping as of now, though due to the struggles stated above, here I am, holding my iPod and typing this down. The reason im having this physical struggle is due of this mental struggle. I'm struggling physically 'cause im feeling tired now, having not enough sleep and I still have work tonight. It has been 2 hours sincce I laid down in bed, struggling mentally, my mind wouldn't just stop thinking, thoughts keep running in my mind, the current problems I have, doubts starting to build up, and all this hatred and apathy. 

Tabulas has always been my refuge, whenever there are thoughts like these I need to let out. 

Sighs.

by asepdf | 06:56 PM | Trails to forever | 2 said something

problems, please fuck off and go away. 

by asepdf | 11:14 PM | say anything?