3 days, and it's almost like forever. I'm not sure of what's the reason for this. I just hope nothing will change on the way we are. I just really appreciate those times we talked.  I'm not really sure how I could tell you that you really mean to me. You don't know how happy I am to be this close to you.

I'll always care for you.

by asepdf | 02:00 AM | say anything?

minsan, naisip ko, pagod na din pala ako. paulit ulit na lang din ang nangyayari. saan pa ba ko tutungo. :|

by asepdf | 11:48 AM | say anything?

Wala. hindi ko alam. wala ako magawa. magsusulat na lang.

Ano nga ba dapat isulat? Mga bagay na tumatakbo sa isip o taong tumatakbo sa isipan?

Ano nga ba nasa isip ko? Sa kasalukuyan, malabo.

Oo, malabo. May mga sitwasyon talaga na napakalabo.

Ngayong araw, parang wala pang magandang nangyari sakin.

Sablay, puro pa lang kasablayan. :|

Iligtas niyo ako sa kabugnutan. ugh.

by asepdf | 03:36 PM | say anything?

Sometimes I run, but I'm not afraid.
Why must you bring up all mistakes that I've made?
She makes me smile, then you come around.
The wind in her hair reflects the sunset I see.

You make it seem like it was yesterday.
But we've come a long way out of the rain.
Can't seem to figure out what happens after this.
Why can't I?

Why must you say I made a mess out of things?
I won't believe it.
Tonight feels right like I'm dancing on air.
I'll make it right, I'll make it right.
Pull over to the station and fill up on fuel.
And what will I do?

Sometimes I drive or ride with my eyes closed tight
because if the skyline looks this way then I don't want to sleep tonight.
Never giving up, always seeking light,
we must always try, try with all our might.

- Mae (Band)

Seems like it was yesterday, but we keep on moving forward.
Not knowing what tomorrow may be.
Unsure of what will happen to us.
This time, I felt afraid of my risk-taking attitude.
But as long as you're there, as long as you still have that sweet smile,
I'll continue driving in this road, called "Life."

by asepdf | 04:05 AM | Probably meaningful | 2 said something

or actually night. ugh. It feels weird waking up someone texting you that she's in the hospital right now. It even feels weird hearing your father's name shouting to your brother to wake you up in a made tune. It seems like I started back being pessimistic again, no, not pessimistic. It’s more like being apathetic. Somebody, take me away from all of this. :|

by asepdf | 12:58 AM | say anything?

There are times I want to keep on writing and writing all the thoughts I have in mind that I'd have my fingers swelling and bleeding. Though sometimes I just don't know how to start. I used to make some kind of a poem using my cellphone before, every time I'm depressed, inspired or whatever feelings I have. I wish that I could still find those that I've written before. It seems that I've lost interest or reasons to make those sort of things.
One of these days, I would be able to write things again.

by asepdf | 03:20 AM | say anything?

you dont live to be ignored

you grieve for your pain

she started getting bored?

do you have anything to gain?

you still want to go further?

but you cant move anymore

you must always remember

turtles always leave the shore....

something I wrote for my friend from year 07 because he's so emo with a girl )

by asepdf | 07:14 AM | say anything?

'cause sometimes, we just got so unlucky, that it seems we have the world on our back. :|
It's been so stressful these past few days.
It's like I'm in the verge of getting in the state of depression at any moment.
I've been having all sorts of problem, and it's hard.
But I just had to keep moving.
If it's not for you, I wouldn't be able to continue to smile. ○

by asepdf | 12:08 AM | say anything?

Sometimes it just feels so pointless.

by asepdf | 03:53 AM | say anything?

Time sure moves fast. Sometimes we just can't keep up. Okay, I just don't know how to start. I just have this feeling of writing out again but don't know where to start or even what to write. As of this moment, I figured out to write whatever comes in my mind. First off, things at school sure did change. All I'm certain is that I'm not affected with whatever she does anymore. Besides, I've got good friends to share my time with during at school. A liar will always be a liar. Another thing I have in mind is I'm beginning to know myself a little bit better. Yeah, you read it right. Sometimes, we really don't know who we are or what we are capable of. By this time, I've learned that loving is better when it's unconditional.
I've just been through a lot of things. Things that taught me how to cope up with all this. I just cannot fathom everything that's happening.
By this time, all I wanted to do is get away from everything. Spend my time alone, walk where my feet could bring me until it hurts and rest for a bit. I want to go somewhere, somewhere that's far from everyone I know. There are still a lot of things I have to learn. I just have to find my purpose.
Speaking of purpose, I just finished reading my 40 day journal, which turned out to be more than 40 days, because it took me an interval of 1 week to finish reading the 40th day after the 39th. Unfortunately, I still don't know what to do.
Well, with all these emotions and events occurring to me, I'd be strong and keep on smling.

by asepdf | 02:08 AM | say anything?