putangina. putangina. putangina pa! ano na ba nangyayari sakin? it's just not like me anymore. I'M FREAKING LOST with my situation and I've been inefficient and irresponsible at work. I remember a friend saying that Love can bring either the best or your worst. So tell me what love brought me. Ewan ko. I'm having cluttered thoughts. Malabo!

Sometimes, there are things better left not known. 

Sometimes, you just have to believe those good things and moments you're having.

Sometimes, you just have to be stupid and fool yourself!

Sometimes, you just have to trust!

Sometimes, you just have to love and give it all out.

Sometimes, sometimes..... FUCK!

by asepdf | 01:15 AM | say anything?

Somehow, I kinda expected that you won't be coming with us. Intuitions. Yeah. I'm not looking forward to anything. FUCK. 

So that's it, is it over? hmm.

by asepdf | 01:53 PM | say anything?

Somehow, I kinda expected that you won't be coming with us. Intuitions. Yeah. I'm not looking forward to anything. FUCK. 

So that's it, is it over? hmm.

by asepdf | 01:53 PM | say anything?

Somehow, I kinda expected that you won't be coming with us. Intuitions. Yeah. I'm not looking forward to anything. FUCK. 

So that's it, is it over? hmm.

by asepdf | 01:54 PM | say anything?

Ngayon, hindi ko alam kung anong dapat kong maramdaman. I have to be strong to face all of this. I have a lot of things I wanted to ask you. Ano ba talaga ako sayo? Ano pa ba ang nararamdaman mo para sa kanya? Malabo! Oo, yun ang lagi mong sinasabi. Masasaktan mo lang ako, mahihirapan lang ako sayo. You always make your situation your excuse. Pwede naman kasi baguhin kung gusto talaga. Pwede kang kumawala na kung ayaw mo na talaga sa kanya. I just don't want to come to the point that I have to ask you to CHOOSE BETWEEN US, because I know in myself, wala akong pinanghahawakan. I wanted to hold on, pero kung ikaw yung kusang bumibitaw, how can I still hold on? OO nga, hindi nga naman pala tayo. Pero the feeling is mutual. We both know ourselves that we have what everyone call LOVE. We just don't have that commitment, as of yet. You told me you can't give any commitments yet. I know.

All that I'm sure is if you want me to wait, I'll wait. 

by asepdf | 03:03 AM | 5 said something

I really don't believe that Friday the 13th brings bad luck. But last night, it struck me big time. We've talked, and she said she already decided. She chose him. Saying that she loves his daughter and can't leave her alone. She said that she loves her, and still loves him.

I don't know what she really likes. 

Earlier in the morning, nagkausap kami dahil nagpatawag siya. She cried again, and I asked her kung mahal pa ba niya talaga yung guy. And she said no, or 50-50. 

Ano na ba talaga? 

by asepdf | 07:50 PM | say anything?

Someday, the right time will come for us.

Every move you make 
Every step you take, I'll be watching you

by asepdf | 01:40 AM | say anything?

What the hell is going on? Now I'm more lost. 

Though, it made me think that if you could LIE TO HIM, you could also LIE TO ME! 

by asepdf | 06:51 AM | say anything?

These past few days, all the dreams I'm having, including those 5-10 minutes nap, you were always there. 

by asepdf | 05:55 AM | say anything?