It had been a month since that crazy day. Yes, that crazy day. That craziness that made everyone astounded. We're in a some kind of a relationship, and I'm really happy with it, on a get-to-know-each-other stage. I just wanted to thank you for making me smile every day, every time, every hour, every minute, and every second. I will always be by your side in times of joy and struggles. Share with me your wonderful smiles. I will be here, waiting, no matter how long it would take. My heart will always be with you. I love you, twinksh.

by asepdf | 02:53 AM | say anything?

with these every smiles, there will always be pain inside.

with these every frown, there will always be happiness inside.

very ironic.

by asepdf | 09:42 PM | say anything?

/laɪf/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciationlife [lahyf]

1. The property or quality that distinguishes living organisms from dead organisms and inanimate matter, manifested in functions such as metabolism, growth, reproduction, and response to stimuli or adaptation to the environment originating from within the organism.
2. The characteristic state or condition of a living organism.
3. Living organisms considered as a group.
4. A living being, especially a person.

that defines life.

but in someone else's perspective, what does life really means?

many says life is unfair.

someone says life is but a dream.

and another someone says life really is such a fascinating paradox.

and i say life is a learning process.

but then realization strikes me.

what could really life be?

why is it unfair? is it because someone lives a life obtaining everything he wants and someone doesn't, struggles, and keeps on fighting on a battle called LIFE.

Questions experience can only answer, I guess.

by asepdf | 10:24 PM | Probably meaningful | say anything?

what she doesn't know won't hurt her.

sometimes, lying still saves something.

but i can't force myself to lie to her.

I just wanted to be honest. real honest.

sorry.

smoking really kills.

by asepdf | 01:30 AM | say anything?

Last chance

-Idiot Pilot

There has to be good in here
Have all things gold turned souvenir?
But what was that you said?
All the things we love we hate instead

Last chance as if it could hurt
Too much to be first
The first admit the lie
We are all put here on earth
But what we deserve is to be buried alive

I'm riding on a fence and happy with..
I'm counting on an indifference
But if I had to choose
Well it all looks pretty good to me

Last chance as if it could hurt
Too much to be first
The first admit the lie
We are all put here on earth
So we could be first
The first to be in the sky

Last chance as if it could hurt
Too much to be first
The first admit the lie
We are all put here on earth
So we could be first
The first to float up

by asepdf | 04:52 AM | say anything?

when everything starts to be great, why does a single mistake ruin everything.

why do i have to mess it all up.

okay lang. but on my side, i feel it's not okay.

i smoked, i stepped  on your foot, i dropped your cellphone.

i've been sad all this morning.

will i have a chance to give you a hug before I leave the office?

sighs

i'm sorry. it should have been a happy moment because of some good news, but i messed it all up.

by asepdf | 08:35 AM | 2 said something

27.Do what you can, for whom you can, with what you have, and where you are

Thanks to you for letting me copy your post.

by asepdf | 03:23 AM | Probably meaningful | say anything?

There are things I wanted to say to you, I wanted to put a rule, but I just can't, 'cause I'm not the one who's holding you. I may be with you every day, I may be the one holding your hands, but I'm not the one holding your heart.

I bleed. I'm hurt. I... I don't know...

Why am I doing this?

'cause

I found the reason to smile.

I found the reason to keep my heart beating.

I found the reason to look forward to tomorrow.

No expectations. TIME.

Slow down girl you're not going anywhere
Just wait around and see
Maybe I am much more, you never no what lies ahead
I promise I can be anyone, I can be anything
Just because you were hurt doesn't mean you shouldn't bleed
I can be anyone, anything, I promise I can be what you need

*a part of the song, Vulnerable by Secondhand  Serenade*

by asepdf | 11:55 PM | say anything?

Looking back when someone else is already besides you.

yeah, we've talked everything about your life.

I always keep saying, I understand, that it's okay.

I do understand.

You loved your life.

Still loving... you're still holding on to the memories you've shared..

I know you feel you're being unfair.

Don't worry, you're not.

Every hour we spent is a treasure.

I hate it whenever you feel sad, especially when remembering all about your past.

You know I don't want seeing you sad.

You don't want me to get hurt. I don't know if you can tell if I'm already hurt, since I'm hiding the fact that I am hurt.

But I'm still holding on- just like you do- but with a bleeding hands.

I've always wanted to set rules for us, but there is always something that stops me from doing so.

I want to have you.

I may already have a part of you.

It was still not enough, though.

There are a lot of things I want to say to you.

I know I had been always honest on what I feel.

I always tell you I love you, but there are still things I wanted to say.

Can you please love me wholly.

Please just look forward and don't look back anymore.

Just love me, the way you love/loved him.

by asepdf | 05:24 AM | say anything?

little by little.....

I wonder... I just wonder if...

by asepdf | 09:23 PM | say anything?

tao lang ako, napapgod din. pero kaya ko pa, ngunit hanggang kailan? hanggang kailan ka mananatiling nakahawak sa nakaraan? pwede bang dito ka na lang tumingin sa harapan? tama na ang paglingon sa iyong likuran.. sana hindi dumating sa puntong huli na ang lahat..

kaya ko pa, kakayanin ko pa...

by asepdf | 04:15 AM | say anything?

looking back still

from what I see, it really is hard to forget things you're holding on tightly

memories never fade.

by asepdf | 02:23 AM | say anything?

thinking things...

you, are just beside me, sleeping..

me, thinking, browsing sites, looking at some pictures.

when suddenly you wake up, trying to get back to your work again, but you are still sleepy. and you said, twinx, ayoko na. then sleep.

a lot of things circling in my mind, everything about you.

you're still sleeping. I'm staring at you, I realized,

hindi ka sanay sa ganito.

hindi ka dapat nagpapakapagod ng ganito.

ano ba kaya ko ibigay para sayo?

sabi mo "kaya mo, okay lang", sa totoong buhay, nahihirapan ka na.

I guess, I don't know..

Will I ever sit on that empty seat, when that seat is still reserved.

by asepdf | 02:35 AM | 1 said something

siya pa din ang mahal nya.

by asepdf | 10:10 PM | say anything?