damn. yesterday was a goddamn day for me, night rather.

i never expected things to be like that.

i would be making the same mistake again if this continues.

amf.

by asepdf | 06:35 AM | say anything?

hmm. it seems like everyone thinks of me still as a kid. i'm not a stupid kid anymore. haha. why is it like this. can't you take me seriously or you just don't want me to talk with?   

by asepdf | 04:40 AM | say anything?

things sure are fast changing. sighs.

you smile, then you frown.

you're sweet, then you're cold.

somehow I don't understand.

I guess I was just expecting too much.

yeah, I always expected too much.

another reason to get hurt.

I don't really know if you care for me as much as I care for you.

maybe you're just avoiding me, 'cause that's what you said to me before.

we're friends, I know, only friends.

you gave me the reason to smile, to look forward for tomorrow.

I don't know if I should really venture what I feel.

I don't know if you can accept what I feel.

I don't know how could I continue being like this.

I've got nothing more to say.

just stay happy, and take full care of yourself.    

by asepdf | 12:42 AM | 1 said something

I hate it when she's too sweet. It just makes me expect for something impossible. It hurts me seeing her not caring even a bit for me, it hurts even more knowing that she does care, only as a friend. She said she doesn't want any kind of  this stuff. I'm really sorry, 'cause I can't stop feeling this for her. Time will come that she'd be leaving, she'd be changing. I still remember you saying, "there's nothing permanent, only change is permanent". Now, I'm writing this crap. Having not enough time left. Knowing not a single thing to say everything. I realized, I could never tell you what I feel, it'll make things complicated. I thought of venturing what I feel, though our friendship is at stake. You're sitting behind me. Always behind me.

by asepdf | 08:20 AM | say anything?